I always wanted to prove everyone, especially some of my relatives, that I am something.

But I guess that dream won't come true anyway.

I don't wanna study anymore.

I am FUCKING TIRED.

I can't stop crying when I received my final grade. I only got 125/260 for KASPIL1.
Raw grades that are 130 and above are already exempted for the finals. Instant 3.0 na sila.

Kung hindi talaga ako sumama sa Bicol, I would have been one of the few people who wouldn't take the test. See, if I had complete attendance, that's +3.

128.

Complete attendance have a 10-point bonus.

138.

Putangina.

Finals date pa niyan, December 14. Kasabay ng INTPHIL at JAPALA.

Putangina.

I've wasted my effort. I need to get 90 in my finals just to get a 3.0 because I wouldn't be satisfied with a grade of 1.0, which is like 30+ points to go.

My goal of becoming a Dean's Lister this term is... well, just a fantasy.
My goal of bringing up mg CGPA is yet another fantasy.

(If you remember, my 1st term GPA is only 1.875, and that would look horrible in the transcript.)

I slept at 2AM today to study for INTPHIL. (I started yesterday, 1pm.)
And I only knew a few answers to those 12 questions. I failed myself again.

Ito pa, I told my Mom about what happened. I also told her that I cried.

Ang arte ko raw.

What the fuck?!


This life is bullshit.

Nothing's right.

Hindi na nga ako blessed sa lahat, hindi ko pa mapatunayan sa sarili ko na kaya ko.

Anong buhay ba ang gusto ng Diyos para sakin?

Hanggang kailan ako maghihirap?

Putangina, mas masarap pang mamatay!