i had this dream.
it involves me.
it made me sad, and when i woke up, i started crying.
i was wondering why. and i remembered, it is January 3.
it was (i think) 2001 that we broke up.
this guy, my crush way back when i was a kid, texted me. he said "hi musta?"
i replied, "kakabreak lang namin."
and we texted for a bit, when he said that he wants me to be his girlfriend. being the dumb girl that i am, i agreed. it went on for months. during our 4th month, i greeted him. i said "happy 4th monthsary. luv u."
he did not even bother to reply.
up to this date, we are still "on" but not.
we don't talk. we have no communication.
we were over.
well, he is not the one i dreamt about.
it was my ex for heaven's sake!
of all people, why him?
God know i'm still not over him.
this pain i feel is still fresh over the course of 4 years.
imagine, 4 years.
4 years and still, he is the one i love.
i don't know why.
and note : he is NOT my first love.
First love dies.