It's hard when you think of certain things before you sleep.....

It's hard when you want to do something,  but you can't.

It's hard when you badly want a pair of flats, yet you can't  find  one in your size.

It's hard when you want to go out with your friends, yet you  can't because of transportation problems.

It's hard when you expect people to be there when you get out of the cubicle,  then  you can't find them.

It's hard when people you believed lie to you.

It's hard when you want to talk to someone, yet that someone is not there.

It's hard when you miss your closest friend, and yet s/he is too busy.

It's hard when you think that your friend/s changed, when you  know that  both of you changed.

And have grown apart.

It's hard when you have to give up something  or someone that you  know could make you happy, because you know that your friends and family won't approve.

It's hard to give up happiness.

Yet, come to think of it,


I've always given up my OWN happiness.


And then depression sinks in.

Life's a bitch.

Pffft.